Where are you Christmas?

I can't believe it. It is almost 2 in the morning of Christmas Eve Day and it does not even feel like it.

Maybe it's the lack of snow. 

Or the fact I am working retail and some people are not so nice.

Could even be that I have watched only 3 Christmas movies this entire Christmas season.

And this is odd. My house is not playing hardly any Christmas music. Strange. Christmas music is always playing in my house this time of year.

 And that I spent the beginning/most of the fun time of Christmas at college. Away from home. Preparing for finals. Bleh.

Christmas sure has changed. 

My world is changing. I am growing up.

I can now say that I regret wishing to grow up as a child. 

I was too in a rush to hurry through life. 

Freshman year. I can't wait till I'm a Sophomore then I will be in the High School.

Sophomore year. I'm the lowest class. Junior year will be perfect.

Junior year. Can't I please just be a senior. All my senior friends are leaving. 

Senior year. GET ME OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL. I need to go to college.

I should have just enjoyed it. 

I had a great family life and they made me so happy. 

I love spending time with them now more then ever. I liked hanging out with them when I lived at home, but now it means a lot more to me. 

Ok, I am realizing this really late in the Christmas season (like Christmas Eve Day), but even with the lack of snow and mean customers, I am going to strive to keep Christ in my life. For He is the reason for the Christmas season. As I strive to remember Him, the holiday season is going to be a lot more pleasant. 

 (maybe a few Christmas carols and movies would not hurt either)

P.S.
I think I fully, 100% now understand the meaning to the song.